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07:06 pm
[Link] | Stolen from Zero! He'll understand XP
Who are you?
Are we friends?
When and how did we meet?
Would you kiss me? Where? (Girls only)
Give me a nickname and explain why?
Describe me in one word!
What was your first impression of me?
Do you still think the same?
What reminds you of me?
If you could give me anything what would it be?
How well do you know me?
Are you going to put this on your journal and see what i say about you?
Would you ever meet up with me?
Current Mood:  boing boing boing
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06:05 am
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Drawing again!
I'm glad to say I'm drawing again. And the first pic I've done in a while is quite impressive, in my opinion. I can't wait to show it on my new account on DA tomorrow morning! Also, my parents are out of town this weekend to go to a relative's b-day, and I'll have all weekend to have fun by myself. Anyway, I hope that a lot of people will support me as I get back into my artistic career, and I love all my friends and dragon brothers/sisters! :)
Current Mood:  pleased
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12:54 pm
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Two day visit and a special present: The Flu
Well, I decided to go over to my friend's house on Tuesday, and we met each other, had a long ass bike ride that nearly killed my balls (again). We had dinner at BK, and got the manager interested in having my dad install handles and knobs for him. Went back to the house and my friend got me interested in Onimusha: Dawn of Dreams. That little troll in the upside down bag makes me want to kill him, and having to defeat the same villains over and over again gets irritating, but the game is awesome other than that. My favorite character to use is Ohatsu, who is a rifle user. When used in open spaces, she's a goddess. It's a fun game overall. We went to the Meadows Mall on Wednesday, and it wasn't that great as usual. We had lunch in the food court, and then we went back to the house and played games all day til dinner, where we went out and ate KFC. I woke up today and left for home. It was a rainy day, and my cold was hitting me really hard. Ate at Del Taco, and then managed to make it home. Now I'm here with the cleaners my Mom didn't know were coming cleaning the house, and my new dog going absolutely nuts she can't run around as much as she normally does, and our old buttface is sitting in the room just laying down. So, now I'm hungry, yet still sick. The Flu blows.
Current Mood:  sick
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06:04 pm
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My mouth is actually DEAD!... for the moment...
I didn't think it was possible for someone to talk me into losing my voice, but someone did. One of my friends from high school likes to talk to me on a common basis. After two or three days of talking almost all day, my mouth is about worn down to the brink of nothing. I can barely talk, or breathe for that matter, since I tried to talk to him while biking (need a friggin vehicle with an engine). Anyway, I'm sitting here talking on messenger where my voice can be heard without annoying my vocal cords. Drop me a note sometime.
Current Mood:  exhausted
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05:46 pm
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Eh, I might as well...
How can I say my day went? I had some small free time in the morning to talk, and then I watched some of the movie Naked Gun (Leslie Nielson freaking rocks!), then took a shower, got ready, and put the dogs away. I headed for the mall, and right as I got in sight of it, I got a flat. It's funny, I'm the freaking king of flat bike tires (inner thoughts: murgenfurkinmurgerahhh!!! translation: You don't want to know)I went to three places. Went to Copeland's they let their repair team go because they're going out of business. Went to Sports Authority, and they were way behind. I finally went to Dick's (which hurts my balls to say, which I'll tell you why later in this journal posting), and they could fix it. The guy there said the original people who worked on my bike were full of shit justifying slime in the tube, which I agreed with. He fixed it quickly while I was there, then I walked around the mall. They were selling World of Warcraft pins, badges, and stickers at Hot Topic (I can't BELIEVE they don't have Tauren!!! *fumes*) I had Mickey D's for lunch, went back to my house, but stopped at Del Taco and the 99 cent store before I went all the way home, and then I let the dogs back in and put my bike away. Now I'm sitting here with a bad case of numb balls because of my bike seat. Curse external balls! >.n.< Anyway, I don't know why I bother writing these. Unless I TELL people that I write them, noone ever bothers to look. I guess this is just me letting off a little steam. But if anyone comes across this, feel free to comment. I have a bad pinch in my stomach right now :(
Current Mood:  aggravated
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05:13 pm
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What I like and dislike
Cars
Likes: 1963 Chevrolet Impala
Dislikes: Pontiac Aztek
Food
Likes: Fast Food
Dislikes: Food without flavor
Drinks
Likes: Pepsi
Dislikes: Rootbeer
Sauces:
Likes: Light Mayo
Dislikes: Spicy Mustard
Video Games:
Likes: Budokai Tenkaichi 2
Dislikes: Any sports game
Movies:
Likes: Pirates of the Caribbean 2
Dislikes: Bad Santa
Tv Shows:
Likes: Street Sharks (I wish it was still on TV)
Dislikes: Bobo Bo BoBoBo (That show is utterly retarded and makes no sense)
Clothing:
Likes: Shorts
Dislikes: Collared Shirts
Colors:
Likes: Purple
Dislikes: Green
Temperature:
Likes: Cold and dry
Dislikes: Hot and humid
Location:
Likes: Any place that is fun
Dislikes: Places where he has to wait in line for something he doesn't want to do XD
Monopoly:
Likes: Cox Cable
Dislikes: Wal-Mart
Modern Animals:
Likes: Crocodilians
Dislikes: Wasps
Mythical Animals:
Likes: Weredragons (weird one, huh?)
Dislikes: Aliens from Alien vs Predator (I hate how they have to have human hosts, bleck!)
Ideal Girlfriend:
Likes: A kind girl who accepts me for who I am and listens to what I say.
Dislikes: A shy girl who has such little personality she can't even say anything on the phone.
Ideal Friend:
Likes: People who are concerned about friendship rather than public opinion.
Dislikes: Controlling, greedy friends who could give less of a crap about what you say.
Ideal Superhero:
Likes: A vigilante who only follows his own morals, and is ruled by no man.
Dislikes: A hero who is cocky and narrow-minded.
Ideal Supervillain:
Likes: The villain that covers every detail and KILLS the damn hero when he gets the chance.
Dislikes: The cowardly villains who only use minions to do their dirty work.
Possible Dreams (None of these have happened):
Favorite Possible Dream: Being Dalaraga (which I have yet to do >.n.<)
Worst Possible Nightmare: Being betrayed by all your friends at once (it could always be by a force greater than you can imagine)
Character:
Likes: Virgil from Devil May Cry 3
Dislikes: Alvin and the Chipmunks (DIE!!!)
Favorite Console:
Likes: The Playstation Series
Dislikes: The XBox Series
That's all for now. Later!
Current Mood:  thoughtful
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10:37 am
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Hehehe :)
<td align="center">You are 20% evil
You are not evil. Why are you taking this test? You are a nice person and are always thinking about others.
Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com</td>
How did I NOT see THAT coming? XD Good, indeed.
Current Mood: amused
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08:42 pm
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A revelation untalked about... til now
I didn't realize how many people did not know about the incident last summer that I went through. One of the most traumatic times of my life. This was back when I was still using medication for my disorder (an autistic one). The pill I was originally taking caused me to gain weight, so we wanted a different pill. I went on to take a pill that had the exact opposite: weight loss. However, this wasn't just a simple metabolism speed up. First, it starts off as a feeling of tightness in the throat. Then it becomes lack of breath. Then it turns into throwing up any solid food that may come in contact with your mouth. This ordeal lasted anywhere from July of 2005 to September of 2005. I couldn't eat the foods I loved anymore, I could barely breathe, I felt like crap all the time, I was on the verge of crying, and for a rare moment suicidal thoughts. I was in so much pain, I wanted to die. Starving to death was killing my stomach, and my happiness. After going through another pill with the same symptom, I reverted back to the pill which made me gain weight, and I was much happier. That's why I have the biggest fear of starvation and being anorexic. Because I've been there before, and it's the most depressing thing you will ever experience. Keep the meat on your bones, trust me. O.n.O
Current Mood: grateful
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09:51 pm
[Link] | * dominant or submissive
* logical or intuitive
* social or loner
* kinky or vanilla
* cute or sophisticated
* kitten or puppy
* warm flannel sheets or sleek satin
* leader or follower
* quiet or talkative
* spontaneous or planned
* teddy bear or porcelain doll
* hiking or window shopping
* tequila or vodka
* top or bottom
* bare foot or shoes
* jeans or slacks
* tender or rough
* aware or dreamy
* nerd or jock
* brains or brawns
* common sense or book smarts
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08:15 pm
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A quiz I made!
http://quizilla.com/users/ZhangFan/quizzes/Skinny%2C%20Muscle%2C%20and%20Fat%3A%20What%20will%20you%20be%20in%20the%20end%3F/
This is a quiz to determine if you'll be fat, skinny, or muscular in the future. Everyone enjoy it! I'll post my result in a response to this when I'm done taking it. Have fun!
Current Mood: excited
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10:42 am
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Money... coming soon to the wallet in my pocket!
Yes, by about this upcoming Saturday or Monday, I'll be loaded again, something I desperately need to be. Anyway, a few notes:
1. My new lab mix, Kadie, hates my friend Bob with a passion. Probably because he's such a violent person.
2. Bob has a dark aura, and when two other people with such auras met us, all three of there's attacked mine. People with such auras apparently cannot control their auras, but damn was it painful >.n.<
3. Finally going to go for trying to be padded at least once. I made preps for the "private" event (aka, I'm doing it by myself, when my parents are not home), and I've set some rules with my self as a cautious first. Going to see if my interest is worth it.
4. I'm always up for meeting new friends. I seem to meet a lot of new ones even now. Don't be a stranger! :)
5. If you have music programs, let me know. I'm dying to listen to some good tunes I don't have on my comp
Say hello sometime!
Current Location: In my room, about to get ready for the day
Current Mood: content
Current Music: Breath of Fire Docks music, in his head
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05:24 pm
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Non-descript Day
I must say my day was... non-describable, as in the "I don't know if it was fun or boring" kind of way. I helped my dad set up an exhibit at a home expo (he sells and installs handles and knobs at people's homes). I got to see a few interesting exhibits. My favorite one was this one that had an arcade machine that had up to 4,700 playable arcade games (all before the year 2000). Expensive, but I'm hooked on it. Anyway, after I set the exhibit, up, had lunch, and explored, I realized Dad didn't need my help, so I left for home on the transit system. It was slightly confusing, but I made it home. My mom saved me some extra walking, and picked me up down the street where the bus couldn't go. I then watched some tv, ate some pizza, and now I'm going to try and stay online for a while. Interesting thing, I put a poll up on my forum to see which artist draws me best as far as personality goes. Out of people I know online, only three (unbelievable, isn't it?) constant contacts have EVER heard my rl voice (to save you the guessing game, it was Kaji, Zero, and Showtime). Zero voted Fanimal, and I believe Kaji unofficially voted the same. That, and Fanimal is a very good friend, and his style is quite nice. Meant to be kid-friendly (which I don't personally have a problem with). I hope he draws the others one day (imagines a Zero drawn by Fanimal and chuckles). Anyway, I really do jump around like crazy when I can't talk to anyone, so please feel free to e-mail me at darth-vengent@hotmail.com . I look forward to it! :)
Current Location: In my room, glad to be relaxing
Current Mood:  blank
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02:45 pm
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My head hurts... kind of...
You know when those friends that have infinite things to talk about, but all they really are are re-statements of an old conversation with extra information, and you try to keep up so much that you wear your brain out and get a headache? I have one of those. I was barely conscious enough to ride my bike halfway home to my house from his. It was luck my tire got a flat, or I would have collapsed. I had already spent 45 minutes to an hour riding one street just to get to another street to turn. I had a while to go. Overall, the ride would have been 2 hours on a bike. And the bike I had wasn't bus-friendly, either. One of my friends commented me as being "a trooper". I found the comment quite nice, seeing as how I do view myself as a tough bastard very often. I can get beat around quite a bit and keep going. If I want to get through something bad enough, I don't give up, that simple. So if it's one thing I succeeded at, it's never giving up in a certain situation. There's some where I'll tell myself to screw it, but then there's those exceptional cases where I really go the distance. Still, I'm really tired X.n.X I'll be open for convo on lj, e-mail (darth-vengent@hotmail.com), or the forum of the group I established (the link can be found on Zero's lj user info page), though... I wish I could do something dragony right now, but there's not much to do, except roleplay, so...
Current Location: In my room, out of breath and loving the a/c
Current Mood: content
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08:25 pm
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All my fault...
Please pardon this rant, but... I'm in a depressive mood tonight. I've felt like I've lived a life in vain. So many people I've hurt, lied to, broken, and been ungrateful to, as well as people who didn't deserve to have to try and understand me. I shouldn't have been stubborn, and tried to always be right, and talk only about what I like. I've been nothing but a selfish, unmotivated bastard. When I try to make new friends, they're always hesistant to be around me. I used to love it when people actually approached me and told me hello and wanted to be friends, because I'd always say yes. Not like the other way, when I would ask people, and they'd tell me to leave them the hell alone. But it's not their fault. Noone should have had to try and understand me. My mistakes were my fault. I want a future where I'm truly honest, and caring, and ambitious, and all the things I want to be. But I'm stuck at a point where I don't know where to start. To all those who truly loved me as a friend or like a brother, I'm sorry if I let you down. I'm a loser and a coward. I just want my life to change direction, and become more confident, and perhaps learn how to be on people's level. Perhaps, I'll try harder tomorrow, perhaps I'm just fooling myself like I do every night before I go to bed. I wish for once, I would be strong in something. Is it truly wrong to dream of a life where I was what I felt I should be, and to do the right things? Perhaps, perhaps not. But tomorrow, or a day after, I'm going to have to cut the crap and try harder. I can't beat myself up for the rest of my life. It'll only lead to bad things. Pray for me.
Current Location: In my room, wracked with guilt
Current Mood: depressed
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12:57 am
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From Kaji's Journal!
(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)
| ✓ I miss somebody right now. (I love my Nana. She was my favorite relative ever. May you rest in peace...) |
✓ I don't watch much TV these days. (TV really sucks. I only watch CNN News, KLAS News, Animal Planet, Comedy Central, Cartoon Network, and Toon Disney, and only on occasion.) |
✓ I own lots of books. (That I don't read anymore XD) |
| ✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses. (Got a new pair today) |
✓ I love to play video games. (RPG, Fighting, Racing, and Shooting) |
× I've tried marijuana. |
| × I've watched porn movies. |
× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. |
✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy. (I almost never lie, unless I fear for the worst.) |
| ✓ I curse sometimes. (Quite frequently.) |
✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. (I'm full of anger, and yet much more mature at the same time now.) |
× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. |
( it goes on... )
Current Location: In my room, with the light on, in a quiet house
Current Mood:  curious
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10:31 pm
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Work sucks...
I went to work, and completed the only morning this week I would be Cleaning Captain. From there on out, it was absolute hell. The kids who had completed high school for the year would come looking for a place to eat and loiter, and turns out almost every kid chose our Taco Bell. It all went downhill from there. We didn't have sufficient workers for the 50-60 people we'd be serving at a time, it was raining so the floor was getty wet and dirty, I was running everywhere trying to keep order, stupid little shits kept leaving their trays/papers/etc ALL over the damn restaurant on their tables after they left, I hardly had any time to stock or check the bathrooms, I had to do dishes and they kept giving them to me one after another, I barely got the trash out by the time I normally do, and to top it all off, I had NO decent social interaction at work today AND my partner had the nerve to give me her "I have Lupis, and I'm always in pain!" story and tell me that the job was "easy"! I swear, if I hear one more person at that job say "You're only doing half the job we're doing!", or "Your job is SO easy!", I'm going to attempt to knock their head off with a clean blow to the face! I'm tired of people underestimating my job. These ****ing little bastards think my job is easy? They can have it, the little ****ers! I'm tired of being underappreciated. I'm tired of getting shit pay. And I hurt like hell! I can barely think, I wanted to draw SO bad tonight, but I can barely make an effort to want to try now. So thanks to my damn job, I'm going to have to do it tomorrow. All I have the power to do right now is perhaps complete an e-mail, take a shower, and hit the sack 2-3 hours earlier than I normally do. I don't even think I want to go into work tomorrow. I feel either like screaming, breaking down, or beating the living shit out of something. But if I can sleep it off, that's just as good for me. Thank god for bars. No little shits to bother me. Just the sound of slots going off in the background, and me enjoying a tasty burger and pepsi. Even the arcade and the mall were a little more satisfying. But the fact remains. My job sucks, and I need a new one. If only I knew what... >.n.<,
Current Location: In his room, tired and upset as hell
Current Mood:  wanting to release his anxiety
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07:12 pm
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What is my life worth?
I look around in the furry community. Almost all the furries who are friends with each other either had time online to be real good friends with them, or were friends with them in real life. Main topic this evening... just because you lack physical possessions doesn't mean you'll always be sad, and just because you have LOTS of physical posessions doesn't mean you'll always be happy. I was raised in a middle class family, with good privileges (which my parents rub in my face). I've always gotten trips to theme parks, malls, arcades, everything a kid could of wanted. But what does it mean when all you ever wanted were friends who didn't discriminate you for your flaws and friends that would love you as a friend unconditionally? Sure, I have a few close friends that I truly admire. But all through my life, I was considered gay by other school kids for being nice. I took a nasty offensive with words to defend myself (because all I wanted were friends, and people liked being a jerk to me). It was upsetting. I never had large groups of friends. Hell, even my close ones ganged up on me and abused my kindness and friendship. I was always taken for granted, never appreicated for the goodness I gave others, hated by many, loved by few. What I get physically? Means shit! When all you want are people you feel in tune with, and want to spend your days laughing, running around with, and talking with, everything is second. When you have parents who say they understand your anger and they don't, and a brother who thinks he's always right (for that matter, real life friends who think they're always right), life seems like a downright macro pressing his foot into you and smearing you into the ground (I know some of you macrophiles like that, but I recognize the painfulness of this symbolization.). I really, REALLY appreciate the friendship people have given me, and I'm glad to give it back. But... why is it I was born into this world, never to be understood, never to have lots of friends, to have everyone make a joke out of you or outright hate you because you have horrible social skills? Or treat you like a disease because you're plain nice? Perhaps this is why I'm greedy for things: for money, for art, for ridiculous outrageous dreams... because I never feel like I have the capacity to make friends. I suck at it. I want to make them SO bad, but I don't know how many people can handle me: my talkativeness, my depression, my anger, my sometimes greedy demeanor, or how many of those friends will take my advice as well as they'd take advice from a friend that they have known for many years more. I wish I had the friends many others had. That's all I'm asking for. Besides all the asking and wanting certain things... yeah, I want to be a dragon, that'll always be one of my main things. But if it had to be anything else, it would be that I would have many more friends, and that I could prove that I was worth being their friend. I hope people know what I'm feeling, so they can give me some advice. I really need it right now :'(
Current Location: In my room, reflecting on a not-so-fortunate life
Current Mood: rejected
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03:40 pm
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Why I'm so angry all the time...
You know WHY I drew that pic on FA? The one where I punched the living crap out of that bag on the machine? It's because anger, like a smile, spreads like a disease. I'm angry because my friends are miserable, because they're friends make them feel miserable, or because life shoves things in their face they don't deserve. As the anger spreads from person to person, so does it to my friends, and theirs to me. The raw aggression, anxiety, depression, emptiness of it all... it's enough to tear your soul apart. All my life, all I've ever wanted is for, not just my friends and family to be happy, but the world to be happy. Anger and sadness are my bane. I want them to go away. They ruin my life by infecting my friends, my family, and people I meet. Growing up in school where everyone thinks your an alien from another planet for being nice, going out in public and having everyone give you rude stares because they're all in a bad mood, letting your parents down and seeing their rage-filled faces full of disappointment. People wonder why I'm angry all the time, well, here it is: BECAUSE EVERYONE ELSE AROUND ME IS ANGRY!!! If people, for one second, could treat their fellow man/woman with some common courtesy, happiness, and love, I wouldn't even be writing this. But the fact it, reality sucks. Earth sucks. Being human sucks. My parents wonder why I want to be Dalaraga, to spread my wings and fly away from these diseased people, to follow my fantasies and be considered crazy for it. Well, there you go! Perhaps, if people get a clue, and realize that being friendly and happy doesn't always mean you are gay, maybe then, my respect for humanity will raise, perhaps, 30 or 40 points or so. But I'm not betting on it. Humans being the "superior" race is bull$#^%! We are failures, and the only way we will succeed is if people pull their head out of their @$$ and start trying to change themselves. It's not a matter of religion, lifestyle, or anything else like that. Only YOU are responsible for your behavior. Make a change, make the world better. Be happy, and make me happy for a change...
Current Location: In my room, tense as hell with anger
Current Mood: pissed off
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05:24 pm
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Renewed Confidence!
Today was great! I had my first celebration of my b-day (there's either two or three more I'm going to have). This one was with my best friend of 10 years, Brad. We met back in 6th grade. We went to the Strip, and took pictures of all the sites we loved. I even managed to score two pics of me in front of a dragon statue at the Excalibur, one on each side (my friends will finally get to see what I look like at 21! XD) But the best thing of the entire day, by far, was when I discovered the love of my life: an arcade punching machine which measures your strength! It was SO much fun, and only cost 50c each time I played it. I played 7 or 8 games of it. Here are some statistics about the game:
Max Score You Can Get: 900
Highest Score Ever Recorded: 801
Highest Score Seen Today: 730
Brad's Highest Score Today: 704
My Highest Score Today: 681
Required Score Not To Get Booed: I think 650
My last attempt was the one where I got 681, and it was the only attempt where I got cheered by the machine. Everyone around me was using punches, and I was using palm strikes with my right hand. I hit higher than, perhaps, EVERYONE IN THE ENTIRE VICINITY, except for three people this particular day: My friend Brad (704), a black gangster-looking guy (727), and another black gangster-looking guy (730). So knowing I was the fourth strongest person out of, say 8-10 people trying the machine out, I'm pretty impressed with myself. You see, when people get booed, they normally get discouraged. Me, on the other hand, loved the concept of this game SO much, that I decided I WANTED a cheer. So it forced me to try harder and better, until, on the last attempt, I managed to do it just right, and beat the required mark for cheering. It made me feel accomplished, but I am not satisfied. I am going to do it as much as possible until I beat my friend, and then those two black guys, and then until I beat that record, and THEN, if I still feel up for it, I'm going to go for 900. I feel I have a good chance of hitting that mark one day. For once, I can be proud of myself for something. I feel like I can bring honor to my dragon heritage, and be closer to becoming one with my spiritual self. A good day, indeed ^.n.^
Current Location: In my chair, hyper off my tail and full of confidence!
Current Mood: excited
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12:58 pm
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Good to be home...
Just relaxing after a bit of work today. Today was stressful at some times, rewarding at others. One of the highlights of the day is when my co-worker Deanna decided to howl like a monkey into my ear and scare the living shit out of me. Everyone had a good laugh at that. I tried to get her back, but failed. Oh well... anyway, felt like posting this from Zero's journal:
Also, my group, Dragon Brothers By Spirit, is functioning well, and growing greatly. If anyone out there feels with all their heart that they are a dragon, and wants to join a group of people who believe in unity and preservation above all, go to this site http://dragonbrothersbyspirit.freeservers.com/ If you're convinced that this is a group you'd like to join, go to the official forum and introduce yourself. We'll see how you are, what you're like, and see where it goes from there! Here's the forum for the group: http://dalaraga.proboards91.com/ Here are the current brothers of the group:
Dalaraga Sareluss (Me): Owner/Editor/Council Member
Kaji Ryuuko: Peacekeeper/Council Member
Zero Whitefang: Council Member
Cael Thunderwing: Council Member
If anyone would like to join, or ask me questions, please don't hesitate! We'd be glad to hear from you! Anyway, I'll let you know how the rest of my day goes later tonight. Sayonara! ^.n.^
Current Mood: excited
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